Today is the 9th of November, which means that two years ago today a wonderful women left us behind. I do believe she went on to a better place where she would no longer be sick and no longer feel the pain of cancer or the frustration of losing her ability to function. It is very hard for us who are left behind, and although time makes it more bearable it doesn’t ever fill that whole which exists in our lives.
My mom wasn’t perfect, but she was a good mom, and she loved us a lot. She brought the family together and kept us on our toes. She was also fun loving, social and active. She made time to play with us when we were children, although I remember she hated Shoots and Ladders 🙂 She made our clothes when we were little, and often made matching dresses for myself, her and my dollies. She was a genius at making gowns for my Barbies!
We were very close. She was the one most devastated when I decided to move to Norway, and the one who came to visit us most often here. We used to chat on MSN and later we used Skype or Yahoo to chat with voice chat or even a camera. We had web cameras, hehehe but after a few tries we decided we looked so bad in the morning that we didn’t need to see ourselves while we drank our coffee. You see we had a standing coffee date which we kept several times per week.
It was awful when mom got sick. I felt like I was going to lose my mind living so far away and unable to help. Fortunately I did manage to get time off and to come over to help her before she died. Her cancer was quite advanced though and there was little we could do but make her as comfortable and as happy as possible. She didn’t like being that way so I am grateful that it lasted only a short time.
Mom, if you are out there and you can hear this somehow, I miss you! I will always miss you! Thank you for all the good things you brought into my life. DeeDee